Tell me ,what do you give yourself when it's your birthday? In my life I have had no birthday parties that were by surprise heck even birthdays that I did get Weren't surprises at all they were just heres a cake ohh and happy birthday. But I come to be happy with what I got. Reason I say that is cause when I was a child I got nothing.
No cake no presents my mom might and I mean might say Happy Birthday. Most of the time when a birthday came round for anyone of us kids I was the one making the cakes . I would look for something to work and make a tiny amount of money to buy the gift.
Now don't get me wrong I love my mother and the fact that she took care of us the best she could. When I got older my mother met a man that I would soon call my step dad. I loved him like a real father. I still made the cakes and still did what I could to buy presents. But he would try and make an effort to get me a gift .
My sister and brother was such butt heads to him though. They felt I was spoiled.But how can a child be spoiled that got nothing . For instant, my sister was able to go out at an early age and party or what have you. My brother the same but more cause he was a boy. Me, well I just stayed at home and stayed to myself. When were teens my brother got number of cars that he would trash .
My sister got a car and didn't like it cause she felt it was ugly ,big and a dark green. She called it the Tank. We thought that was fitting also but funny. Well she hated it so much that my father took it back and gave it to me. I was proud to have it. Our mom even told my step Dad that my sister wanted a horse. So he went searching for a horse and found one that ended up being pregnant. The owner changed their minds about selling that horse and offered another one instead.
My sister was very upset. The Paint that was the one she thought she was getting and wasn't .Then they showed her to the one that they were offering. She looked at the horse and said ...NO. Dad couldn't afford anything more than that one. So he bought it anyways and told her he couldn't afford anything else. She wouldn't talk to him. When we got back home with the horse.
I went to the stall where she was being held . I looked her over and thought ,Wow what a pretty and large horse. She wasn't really that large. But to me as small as I was she was huge. lol I looked at her tail and then her mane. There were burs all in them . She looked as though she rolled around in a bur patch.
I went home and the next day I brought car oil with me. I also had a bruch and a comb. I went there every day til I got all the burs out of the Mane and then the Tail.My sister never thanked me but I knew the horse was happy with it. She looked so pretty after that. I brushed her everyday when I got out of school.
Now mind you yes she wasn't my horse. But I couldn't stand seeing her that way. One day she was sat down by our mom and dad. My sister that is. ^.^ They told her if she doesn't take care of the horse that they were going to sell it. I could over hear them talking. I began to cry and ran in saying no no please don't. Thats when she turned and said "I don't want that ugly horse anyways.
Now who was the spoiled one? Well now everyday that I went to brush her and feed her .Make sure she had her water tank filled. I knew she was mine. Then a day came that my sister's best friend came by the house and was riding her own horse. I had decided to go for a ride that day on my horse. I just happened to stop by our house first and pick up some cash so I could go by the store and get a soda and some combos.
I also was going to stop by the feed store and pick up something for the horse to have as a snack. Yeah I was weird that way . lol Well my sister decided to jump on the horse and going riding with her friend without asking me. I went outside to get on her and go. But she had already left with her friend. I was mad but didn't say anything.
I really thought my mom was going to side with my sister. I walked back into the house and sat on the couch. My mom came into the room and saw me sitting there and she knew I just came in to get my money and then go riding. She also knew my horse was outside. She asked me was I going to just leave the horse outside like that.
I gave my mom a look like what horse? She looks at me and tells me that to come with her. Well needless to say my mom was very mad. We looked around town for them and found them. My mom gave her a yelling. The horse was to be rode back to the house and I was to get her back. But the only thing was my sister made me ride on the back . She steered the horse. Then when we got almost to the stall where she rode the horse to she made me get off the horse and walk. I had been wearing flip flops that day and lost them half way back.
The roads were so hot you could fry an egg on them. When I got back home my feet had blisters on the bottom. I mean blisters now. My sister's friend dropped her off at our house after they dropped my horse off at her stall. So my mom went off on my sister again. I knew I wouldn't hear the last of it from my sister seeing how we shared the same room. lol
I asked my sister if she brushed her down and made sure she had water. Did she walk her for a while til she cooled? My sister gave me a look and then tryed to hit me for telling on her. But I didn't tell on her. My mom saw again that I was walking home and saw me limping. I told my sister that but she didn't believe me. Our mom had grounded her for a month for what she did.
I wrapped my feet up and walked back down to the stall. I rubbed her down and then brushed her . I walked around the pasture with her til I felt she was okay. Then fed her watered her and then sat with her til it was around 8pm. My dad showed up with a smile and said I knew I would find you here. I just giggled.
When I got in the car I told my dad thanks. He said for what. I told him that ,that horse is the only thing I have ever gotten and she was the best thing I ever wanted. He smiled again and we went home.My sister tryed many times still to ride her but I told her no and our parents told her if she ever did again what she did to me that day. She would never see daylight. lol
That is one of my memories that I am proud of. I still made the cakes and set up the house to look as though there was a cool party. But in my life I have had about 5 cakes either made or bought for me. Not many gifts but I don't care about gifts. I just wanted others to think of me and say happy birthday. Tonight I didn't get anything but the day has just begun. My birthday is the 27th. it is just now 2:21 am so I have a long day still. I just hope I don't get forgotten about once more.
My daughter already said Happy Birthday. and even sung the song. lol So to me I am happy. ^.^ I am just happy I am here another day on this earth with my friends,family. My heart has been giving me crap tonight already and I did take the Nexium today like I was suppose to . I just forgot to eat again. lol I have eating today just not the 2 hours after. I will do it right tomorrow. ^.~
Well I am tired already from watching movies with my daughter. My son is in his room playing on his computer. My daughter tryed to get him to say happy birthday and sing the song. But he just looked at me and said . Happy Birthday mom. Then he went back to his computer. But his sister tells him , You can at least give her a hug. lol he did .
Anyways everyone I hope tomorrow is a great and cool day with no cloud. I also hope I have a day of no murr murrs and panic attaches.
I can keep the panic attaches away with the meds if need be but I have been doing great dealing with them on my own. The murr murrs well thats to be seen . lol
Okay y'all have a good one. I'll try and do the same.