That one was again about my mother. This time I remembered it. She was talking to me about talking care of everyone in the family and staying close to one another . Just stuff that someone would say before they left for good. I woke up in a sweat and panic. I grabbed my cell phone and called my Aunt that my mother lived beside. They weren't at home and so I waited til later and got a call from my brother. "Patty you better get up here to the Hospital , mom wont be with us much longer." I had went and saw my mom at the Hospital the night before and she seemed just fine. But when I got to the Hospital My Aunt was waiting outside and I went up to my mother's room and my Uncle came out to meet me. I started to shake. He went on to tell me that she was already gone and that I shouldn't go in and see her. I was really ticked off. I told him to please move that I wanted to see my mom.
He tried to grab me and hold on to me with a bear hug. But I forced him off and pushed passed. There were two nurses cleaning and tending to my mothers body.
My Uncle told them who I was and they left the room. I hit my knees to the floor and couldn't move. She looked like she was just sleeping but when I touched her hands they felt like she was outside in the winter. They were soft and cold . I cried so hard that night and for about 2 weeks I stayed to myself. That night was the first time in my life and the last time that I drank that hard and didn't care about anything or anybody. I don't even remember that night. But for a few weeks after I just stayed to myself and wouldn't talk to anyone. Til my son came to me and said... "Mommy don't leave me." I was shocked out of my little world of being alone. My son made me realize just what my dream meant. So I do believe in reason for having dreams. They help us to deal with our life to life problems and with other stuff. I had one even about my sister. She loves horse and she was a partying person. At that time she was really falling off into a hard place. I had a dream about a bloody horse with red eyes. The horse trotted up beside of my sister . My sister was sitting down in a lawn chair and had a beer in her hand. She retch up and patted the horse on it neck. She said as she did this " This is my baby" I really freaked again. I hated having those kinds of dreams.
Well I woke up and really couldn't do much about it cause I had lost contact with my sister. But again later that day I get a call and it was her boyfriend at the time. He told me that she wasn't looking to goo and that could I come by the Hospital . I worried all that day. I went and when I saw her they told me her liver was shutting down.(the liver was the horse in my dream.) She looked horrible. She has red spots all over her body and she shacked like she was in the freezing cold weather in Alaska. They eventually gave her something to help her deal with the DTs as they called it.but they told her when she left the Hospital that if she continued to drink she would die. That she came so close to it that night. I told her of my dream. We all in our family have these dreams like this. I am the main one that everyone listens to because my dreams are much more precise. That was enough to scare her I guess. lol She stopped drinking for about 5 years.
She started back up again. No one knows again where she is. I just await that dreaded dream again. But dreams do have there reasons. My son is beginning to get those dreams and that worries me. I don't want the day to come when he has a dream of me like I did of my mother. He asks me all the time about his dreams and he worries about them also. I told him to just forget them and have fun with your life . You will have time to worry about them when your old like me . ^.^ I just recently had one but not scary just strange. But I have talked enough about my dreams now I want to hear about yours. Come on in and lets decipher them.