Well as I aged it wasn't too bad. I delt with it til one day on the Ranch I was watching and drinking a Pepsi. I didn't have anything scary to deal with and I wasn't stressed about anything. So I still to this day don't know why I had one that day. But I have herd that Panic attaches can happen without cause and timing is out the window. You can have an attache while your sleeping.
Well I turned 40 last year and 2 months later I started getting heart murr murrs again along with panic attaches. I had them so bad that I rushed MYSELF to the ER. I felt like my heart was going to blow up. It was hard and I had 5 heart murr murrs in a row. I walked into the ER and feel on the counter and passed out. They told me later my face was so pale that they were afraid my heart had stopped.
But they placed the EKG tabs on me and turned on the machine. There was the murr murrs and I did have a heart beat unfortunately it was the Murr Murrs. Well they sent me to the back and placed me in a room by myself. The male nurse came in from time to time and then he just stayed standing beside me rubbing my arm while looking at the machine. I told him to either leave or stop looking at it like that. He laughed but stayed and watched the beats.
Then he looked down at me and told me that I would be fine and that he would be sure of it. He then walked out of the room and then a Cardiologist walks in a bit later. He looks at the EKG machine and asks me how long have I been having these heart beats. I looked at him and smiled thinking that maybe it wasn't me and that it's not all in my head.
I told him everything and asked him what is causing it. "Well we will find that out ma'am" Then I had to make an appointment for his office to do a stress test and a few other things. Well he tells me something I have herd before. "It is a heart murrmurr and it isn't life threatening..blah blah blah..!
Well he placed a heart monitor on me after I start crying and begging him to figure it out. The results showed nothing abnormal and no life threatening signs. I just have a heart Murr murr. He did notice something he said and that was a rapid heart beat. He asked me if I drink caffeine or smoke or drink anything of that nature.
I just wanted to hit him square in her nose. But I just said no and that I do smoke cigarettes. He tells me that I should try and stop smoking then and stay on a good diet. Grrrrr Well I have herd that so many times. I just smile and say okay but I have lost weight and don't know why you would have to say something about a diet.
But I just smiled again and said "I'm sorry but I use to weigh 250lb. and I think that loosing 75 lbs. is really good. He says "I am sorry ,your right that is really good . I just meant eating more healthy." I was so embarrassed and apologized for blowing up. But that is getting way off topic. Sorry for that. Well I did as he said but the smoking is so hard to do. But I did cut back a lot.
BUT the murr murrs have only gotten worse but no better for sure. I went to work trying to just live my life and well that is all fine and good but that day came.I went to work after we had just moved into our new house. Work was going good and I felt fine. Til later on and then that's when it happened. My heart began it thing. I didn't know it but my face was red as heck and then my lungs felt like I could breath good enough to get oxygen. I was starting to get light headed and felt like I needed sleep and fast.
I then tryed to finish my work and felt as though I was fixing to pass out. I told the other worker that I was going to go sit down and rest cause I didn't feel well. Thats when a customer tells me that my face was really red. She kept asking me if I was okay did I feel okay. I didn't feel any different than when I was standing and my breath was off.
I went on in the office and sat down . I began my breathing thing I do to stay calm and to keep my heart rate down. But that didn't help too much . But I felt I needed to go help the other worker out. When I went back to the counter she said to go on home that I was almost due to get off soon anyways. But I don't like leaving others to have no help when they need it. I told her . That's when a customer walked up and she smiles and then her smile turn to a weird look.
She asks me if I am fine. I told her I don't know but my chest feels like I can't get any air in it and I feel lightheaded. But the word lightheaded didn't come out in time. Then I look over to the other worker and says ...call 911" . The customer that was in my line says she is a RN and to call someone to come to the store that I knew. I handed my cell to her. Then she says to my brother cause he didn't want to drive down to the store. She says she is a RN and the signs she is having are a heart attache.
Well needless to say he didn't show up but the nurse got me to a chair and off the floor where I fell to. I then was rolled to the office and then she did her RN thing. ^.^ (she was a guarding angel ) She got me calmed down and my head between my legs and breathing right. Then she noticed my BP was not right. That's when the Ambulance showed up. They came into the office with their bags and all that stuff. Then opened my shirt stuck the EKG thing on me and then off I was in the ambulance.
Where the lady paramedic gives me 4 baby aspirins and then takes my BP with a machine that wouldn't stop tightening up. She had to unplug it to stop it. lol my arm was bruised the next day. She then tryed to place an IV in my top wrist while the Ambulance was still moving and stopping. Man that hurt bad. Blood squirted and my BP went up again cause well I can handle other peoples blood but not my own. lol
She had to try AGAIN . Crap come on no please. lol I asked her to wait til we stop or something please. She then told me to take a deep breath and be very still. O.o yeah with that bumping yeah that would happen. Well she got it in and I was happy. Then the visit turned into a over night stay and then I was released the next day late in the evening. I was to go to ANOTHER cardiologist. I went to him a few days later but went back to work the next day. :/ yeah back to work. But I did get a lot of sleep in the hospital.
Well he says what the others have said . That is normal and that it's not life threatening.Well then I have to make another appointment to put on a 24 hour heart monitor and then another appointment to get a ultrasound of my heart. (there is another word for it but can't remember it ) . lol Anyways I later get a call from that doctor's office telling me that I have to meet my deductible before being seen again.
Well I told her that well I won't be able to cause we just moved into our home and well no money now to spare. Were on a fixed income. She went on to say that she will talk to the doctor and she did. She called me back and told me that he chose to reset the appointment to a later date.Well I think that is just great. KNow I am having panic attaches that I am having hell with controlling . I use sleep aids to get sleep with and now I am coming down with a cold.
I took some NyQuil that night and the next morning my heart flipped the heck out. Why I don't know. I didn't want to take a sleep aid because well I had to go to work that day. I usually take one and it helps by calming me down. But I couldn't do that. So I tryed everything . Breathing and meditating ,doing things around the house to keep my brain busy. But nothing worked.
So I called the doctor's office and begged them to give me something . That took all day to get them around to doing and so now I have some nerve pills but they aren't keeping the heart murr murrs down that well. But I am dealing with that as best I can. I have to get laundry done before I can go to sleep. It is now going on 2:30 am. Man My life sucks sometimes. My Boss probably wants me to work because I took the day off for the problems. I am sure things have to get better now. right? lol Man I hope so.
Anywaaaays I am off to sleep and then see what tomorrow brings. ^.^ Y'all have a better day than me. Blessings and peace and love be with you. Sorry there is nothing about helping you but hopeful I can find or should I say help for you in my findings . Now with that all said .
Goodnight to all. ^.^ sweet dreams.